Do I dare it? I have so many questions racing in my mind. Where do I start? What if it isn't good? What if start and then I die and never finish? What if I never die and never finish? What if it is good? What's the use if no one will read it? Should I write because no one will read it, which will spare me the barbs of critique? Should I be the only one in its audience? Is there a point to it at all in this case? Isn't art supposed to inspire feelings, or bring about positive change? How artful can it be if the only one who even has a chance of bringing about new feelings or change is myself? Do I have enough paper to write down all these q
What did you expect, a happy ending?
I’m so glad you finally got to see it.
You will blame innocent people for your affliction, and you will hoard, and you will trample upon your fellow man, and you will make merry among yourselves, and even till the angel knocks on your very door you will never cease to fill the world with your noise.
That’s what an Orphic response is. It’s being affected by music for its own musicality. It’s not just a sad song, with a sad story behind it, but sad music itself. It makes a listener respond, no matter their background, no matter their emotional state, with, well sure, pure catharsis. And just like those Dionysiac cultists found out on accident, there is only one cure for it: Noise. Complete, utter, thudding idiocy. The only way to protect yourself from it is to be too stupid to let it affect you.
The song needs what the song needs.
You probably thought I was asleep. That was your first mistake. Just remember that between when you first started reading up to now, your life was in my hands, and if I wanted you dead I could have taken your life anytime I wanted.
Your song has to make any listener, anyone at all, want to hear it over and over again, every minute of every day, until you make another one that makes them want to do the same. Your songs have to be a cupids arrow that hits their heart every time, that makes them love it so much it hurts.
It’s the sauce that has to be perfect, she said. It’s the pasta’s job to get the sauce to your mouth. In a perfect world the pasta would be perfect too, but it’s not a perfect world, so all the pasta has to do is be not terrible. To me, the music is the sauce, and opera is the pasta that gets the sauce to your mouth.
What an incredible thing it was, the marriage of artistic ambition with craftsmanlike discipline.